everything came true ...

am i such an idiot that i will be a burden to anyone? i can do the same as i did b4. i helped her in many ways and i do not claim credit, and i enjoy seeing her succeed in her work. i thought she understand, and even if she doesn't, she will appreciate. but i am wrong.

there's nothing wrong with yearning for bigger and better things. but at the expense of someone whom helped, quarreled and shared the same struggle to a better life with her?

isn't she behaving like him who left her cos he wanted better?

things are very simple sometimes. but why must it be a either-or? my heart is deeply cut.

i love you, i shall let you go.

cannot beleive it

dun noe wat to say it .... cannot say i dun expect it, as i noe it's one of the way it can turn out to be. yearning for a high life and the pinacle of social living...

my stomach is aching and my heart is worse ....

"i need someone who can bring me to another level and give me encouragement" thanks ....

May Day

Is it may day for me? She is not even visiting here, not even once...

i hate my current work.

i wish she knows i miss her alot.

又过一天

sunny 12/04/08

another day of unanswered call. :(

rainy days silent days

10/04/2008 - rain

it's been more than 2 weeks of silence. wonder how is she? been to bangkok and back, and yesterday was my last day.

calls made left unanswered, dun dare to call too much. i am actually a harmless person, why?

i am willing to talk and communicate :(

小情歌

really funny, really helpless... just when i thought we can go out and spend some time together... she just totally switched off and had her own activities for 1 week le... the reason? cos i didn't call/msn her on monday night... i was working till 3 am on sunday night and we went out in the day... on tuesday i called her, but she was already no mood to talk liao which i tot she's busy. on wed, which was a holiday eve, i called her and she was with her friends.

so i said i go out with her on thursday. i msned her and she said she got appt le made sometime ago le. fine, so i said we met later lor. supposedly at 6pm but she said cancelled as her friend wana meet longer... so cancelled again. evening she called and asked if wana meet, i already no mood to meet le.

then during weekend, i tot we could meet. who knows she went out on both days. so i stayed at home and did my stuff.

i really wondered what went wrong? couldn't we communicate instead of just be irresponsible and leave me alone? i am so stressed with work , and when i tot i could talk to someone, there she went disappearing. before i could vent out my stress, i had to hide it and totally depressed. does she know that i am trying very hard le, but why she could just disappear like that?

i really duno......

happily sad

home.night.21:53pm.tired


i finally called her at her home at 7pm.. her voice was different yet so familiar.. two weeks seem like two years, kinda cold but the moment i heard her voice, my heart really skipped a bit and two...

i was afraid to make her angry again, but i have to tell her what i said, if not i duno when will be the next time i can talk to her le .... she was hungry, i stopped talking to her le ... i cannot never bear to see her hungry.

i sent her an sms last night, but no replies.

today is another night.. i dun think i should disturb her ba..

wan an